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Blind [accoustic version] - Lifehouse
Blind

I was young but I wasn't naïve
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
Thursday, April 16, 2009
12:35 AM

'life changing moments can occur within seconds....'
thats my lesson learnt from the several weeks of absence.

as usual, been in and out of camps with dearest n buddies.
really had a good time, just like the old days. well.. almost

and the food, i must say, the cadets are getting luckier as the generations goes by.
i rmb during my Cadet Lieutenants Course, now known as
Cadet Officers Course...
we sat down on the FLOOR and ate our meals in PLATOON level.
haha the good ol'days where i'd always get scolding for not
finishing my food (: we sometimes even had to break a part
of the lunchbox cause there isnt utensils provided.
now, tables and chairs are provided for them.. what more utensils.
sheeesh.

Camp STEEL n Camp FEAST was good, i must say (:
besides having a trustworthy understudy for CampSTEEL while doing S1,
i also had a fun time with the ppl tt came for the course.
What is CampSTEEL?
haha its basically CampFEAST with minor alterations,
like Paintball Battle n Leadership Talks. yupp2
CampFEAST was better. haha MOC had been and is STILL
my favourite station to do.
WHY?
cause the objective of the instructors is very simple.
CADETS MUST GET WET at ALL COST!
however it is inevitable, karma always has its ways...
haha in our mission, there are those who caused the instructors
to get wet instead! sheeesh.
but it was seriously lotsa fun. n not to mention,
A GREAT way to end a CAMP! (:

57th COC was another memorable event..
yes i was the emcee, nth new.
but my dearest Muhd Danial bin Ramli
was the Central Ensign Flag Bearer.
it was his first parade as a Supernumerary
and i'm really proud of him (:
Congratulations dearest!

my knight in shinning no.1? XP

Shanis & Danial (:



i am however, darn sad tt i didnt get to take
A WHOLE LOT OF PICs with people
cause of Emcee-ing ): but anyways, everyting went well!

that basically sums up the whole week, n the FINAL week i was in camp.
after that total break from NCC n HQ and it was home sweet home! almost...heh.

less about Camps updates, more about life updates.
well.. hrmmsh.

dearest Danial brought me to meet his pretty Mom (:
errr... by force of course.
it was the longest 20mins of my life! omg.
i told him, wait till i was wearing baju kurong or kebaya
but noooooo! i was in my drunk rocker attire, n he brought
me to meet his mom.. GRRRRR.
hahas. but unlike him, his mom was nice n friendly n pretty (:
hehe..kk ur nice too okay? XP

next, i went for a short trip to Port Dickson with family.
seriously a GREAT weekend i must say.
i really appreciate the time out from life itself.
however, i'm glad i brought lappytoppy with me.
else, i would have missed someone like a lot...
thanks for the occasional calls n gdnight msgs n ur
pleasant surprises. hahas. ily (:
got my hair half permanently rebonded n half temporarily
straightened. hahas. quite weird to look at myself in the mirror at first.
but got used to it. but i'm glad to get my curls back (:
THOUGH, they are stubborn most of the time. hehs.

OUH!! the DRIVE THERE WAS ABSOLUTELY FUN!
omg. i never imagined how fun speeding was
till i got onto the Malaysian Highway. and i was
speeding LEGALLY for a while. hehes.
120,130,140, 150,160... SLAP ON THE HEAD.
Daddy Says, "HELLO UR LICENSE ONLY ONE WEEK OLD AH!"
but seriously, no wonder there are plenty of good racers in the
neighbouring country. and not to mention,
i practiced filtering of lanes while on the highway. OMG.
STRESSFUL okay when there's only 2 lanes, and its raining and
some ppl seriously have NO PATIENCE. zomg. good driving
experience. looking forward for more!

National Youth Council first Meeting
was GREAT! omg. so many ppl from the Camp tt i knew
were there. we bonded so quickly as if we've known each other
for ages like tt (: looking forward to more meetings.
though i know someone wouldnt like me spending too much
time with NYC, but i promised i'd balance all (: hehs.

Maulidur Rasul at National Stadium was good too.
since i was at NYC, dearest decided to accompany me there
since his family was gg too. so yeaps.
btw, sorry i took darn long to change in the toilet.
hahas. tudung trouble.
anyways, the walk there was fun.
it was seriously a GOOD EXERCISE.
i was like a walking sauna. hahas.
but i'm glad i survived. good trg since i plan to start
wearing tudung permanently...ermm..soon? XP

the atmosphere was great.
the FULL MOON was gorgeous.
the company i had (though it was a grp of makciks),
was HILLARIOUS. hahas.
again i got dumped by my cousins, for i am the only girl.
so yeaps. but the Woodlands Makciks...fuhh..
they are seriously good entertainers. hahas.

after all thats said and dne,
at the end of the day...
i bumped into dearest n family while odw to find out where
daddy parked the car. and so...
yes, i met Danial's almost whole family.
his Granny, Dad, Mom, Aunt, Brothers and Cousins were all there.
hahahs. i had to try to walk properly towards them to salam all,
try to listen to the questions, while entertaining my own thoughts n fears,
and trying to SMILE at all time. fuhh stress kay. nvm2... ur turn will come..
anyways, Alhamdulillah. it went ohkay. i tried my best not to run back
to where my mom was. hehs.
i hope i didnt embarass you dear ;)

my whole week was filled with laughter, smiles n tears. hahas.
but everything happened for a reason.
all the good things that happened are from God
and the bad ones are from our own doings.

change is the only constant thing in life.
everyone makes mistakes
but its how you pick yourself up after you fall that matters.

Only God knows what how it feels like,
and lets all hope for the best. Amin.


.i wanna change for the better.

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