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Blind [accoustic version] - Lifehouse
Blind

I was young but I wasn't naïve
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
Sunday, April 29, 2007
10:04 PM

its been a love-hate weekend.

love
saturday i went for TARIAN!
i thought i'd never say this but,
i'm glad to hear khad's comments again!
haha damn enthu sia we all dance!
i miss d studio, i miss d song, i miss d tarian aches,
i even miss the BOX!
but most of all i miss d TARIANERS.
khad,di,qix,syaf,khai,ain,za,dira,fanaa!
haha k i dun really miss nad and yatz cause we're in d same class.
i cant wait to perform in frnt of the school on wednesday.
let them judge, who should have been the GOLD dancers.
-silently, i pray that they would take another look at the video
which we danced, and re-judge it and give us that GOLD-


next, Graffiti Art Workshop.
haha i hafta admit that this week's design isnt exactly
as nice as the last one was, but i still liked it (:
cause this time, its kinda like our work.
me and hidd (:
haha even if kamal, dino and d chinese guy did helped
us alot.
sorry hidd if i was being quite undecisive abt d design (:

next! ZAHRA's BiRthDay PArtY.
first most havoc party i've ever been.
it was a mini reunion!
maziah,khalis, cute-head molester, tricia, ain, sindhu and hairin.
haha okay so we were being a lil anti social at first,
but we didnt miss out on d fun. hahaha
i didnt dance AT FIRST. but me and maziah had fun
soon after! hahaha.
d scary thing abt this, is that mummy came out telling
us to be careful when we drink the soft-drinks, cause
some of them might be spiked.
i was like, WHAT!
wahhh, i resorted to drinking water from d tap
the whole time i was there. and didnt accept drinks
from anyone at anytime. hahaha so funny.
maybe i'm socially awkward.

all of d friends went home except for me and khalis,
cause our dads have yet to call and claim us back.
thats when khalis and zahra intro-ed me to some of
their guy friends. thats not all, some girl pulled me and
told me to dance with their grp of friends along with some guys.
i got scared arh. basket. cause most of them were either drunk
or half drunk. i was d only fully concious person in d whole grp.
so cool. so i met a few guys that night. khalis told them i'm sha.
i think they got scared hearing a guy's name on a girl. hahaha.
i'm very thankful that God protected me yesterday from
being one of some of those people last night. it was quite funny
and scary all at d same time seeing what excessive liquor can do to you.
one couple were like all over each other, and i dun think they
realised what they were doing. sheesh!
and i'm thankful i'm not as havoc as some of d people there.
haha my limit was having a guy standing a few steps away from me
on d dance floor. they move any nearer, i'll move back.
no touching at all. i swear i'm socially awkward.
thats why, i'm d weirdest person left in d party tt night aft 11.
i love that party.
i love the people.
but i just dun like d fact that people were all drunk.
i like d dancing thing though. its a great way to relieve stress (:
i think i got drunk,
just by breathing in d air. i swear their breathe stink so much,
i could haf fainted. and i think i got high after talking
to 4 drunk people! talk abt diffusion of particles.
haha (:

Hate
i dint want to b d only J2 to go for d visit to d forensic lab
but i was. unfortunately i hated d way d j1's behaved. i
swear they were so rude, and that they had to behave like
secondary school rebels. so embarassing that i was at the same
place with them at that point of time wearing the same uniform.
gosh.

i hate the fact that i've got a chemistry test 2mr.
and i dun feel prepared at all.
someone please save me.
God? Mr Wong?
anybody?

leonard better be a life saviour 2mr.

all the dreams that are left,
was the bits and pieces of d memories with you.


.i wanna change for the better.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007
9:47 PM

its been a long time since i blogged.
but today's post is worth me coming online
and typing about it.

cause d MCS babes and me went to Innova JC
for some Sajak thing (its poetry presentation)
and we went there, with courtesy of Alia DRIVING
us there in her super cute car.

let me name you who are the people CRAMMED inside.
Shaniszah, Zahirah, Qix, Diyana, Khad, Syaf. <-- all these people
at the back seat.
i could have sworn we looked like packed sardines.
thats not all, in the midst of all the cramness, people can still crack jokes!
wahseyy! cannot take it manx.

Alia: want to go jb?
Khad: yeah sure, we'll use our ezlink cards
--> yeah, and get caught as illegal immigrants in MJC uniform! how unglam!

Alia: Wahlao, this minah ride damn slow
Khad: Alia quick! drive past her and we will all wave
(drives past)
All: *waves*
--> Eh that person chinese lah! Not minah!

upon arrival at Innova JC

Us: Oh NOO! they have Student Ushers!!
NOOO Alia! dont drop us off here! NOOOO!
Alia: Nooo! You guys go down here!
Us: No Alia! NOO! Park the Car!
Alia: Nooo! GO DOWN!
(scrambles out of the car one by one, tryin to hide our faces)

In front of the LT 4 door,
Us: Khad, go in
*stopped by IJ teacher*
--> we cant go in cause might disrupt the focus
*stands outside the door listening to the girl we were
suppose to be supporting from OUTSIDE*
*when she's done, the teacher let US in!*

i had a good laugh today.
i knew i made the right choice to go,
even if its for the wrong reasons but still!
i love you guys LOTS!

di, qix,syaf,khad,za and alia: thank you for the wonderful time we had! Alia! thanks for driving us there! i swear its damn cool to see a girl in SCHOOL uniform driving several other squashed girls! hahaha. Di, for ever being sooo blur and never fail to make me laugh. i'm sorry i kacau you!
Qilah, i simply just love you and your expression! Syaf, haha i think you're ever so cute. Khad, your lame jokes are d best manx! Za, try plaiting my hair okays! LOVES!

they say that,
the ones you once loved can vanish from your thoughts,
but never perish from your memories....
but must they stay in your heart and haunt your every dream?
-shaz


.i wanna change for the better.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007
9:48 PM

i have gotten two nick names today.
budak hingus and shiny star!
budak hingus was given by hafiz d kentalo.
shiny star was given by my abang :)

my day went on great today.
all cause of one thing that made a mark in my life (:
stay tuned for 2moro's updates

i'm still missing something in my life despite
having the joys of the world.
i've searched high and low to find the answer...
but its no where to be found,
and seems to be no where near.
my search continues
with hopes that the shiny light is near.
is it far out there in the open seas,
or right here just beside me?


.i wanna change for the better.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007
6:05 PM

never knew gastric would be this bad.
but am glad that painful period is quite over.
not totally but mostly.

quite excited about 2mr.
my FIRST and LAST SYF 2007
representing MJC MCS Contemp Malay Dance.

wish me luck!

people come and go...
we meet new people as the days goes by
and eventually forget the faces of those insignificant few.
but no matter who you are, or where you are,
you bring along the memories of those significant ones
that will stay with you
forever
.


.i wanna change for the better.

Sunday, April 8, 2007
[ A New Begining ]
11:34 PM

wish i could be part of that world.

new blogskin.
do give ur comments .
its all gonna be different now (:

i miss safwanahbteshariffmarican.


.i wanna change for the better.

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