i never felt nothing in the world likethis before
now i’m missing you
and i’m wishing you would come back through my door
why did you have to go?
you could have let me know;
so now i’m all alone
boy, you could have stayed
but you wouldn’t give me a chance
with you not around
it’s a little bit more than i can stand
and all my tears they keep runnin’
down my face
why did you turn away?
so why does your pride make you run
and hide
are you that afraid of me?
but i know it’s a lie what you keep inside
this is not how you want it to be
so baby i will wait for you
cause i don’t know what else i can do
don’t tell me i ran out of time
if it takes the rest of my life
baby i will wait for you
if you think i find it just ain’t true
i really need you in my life
no matter what i have to do
i’ll wait for you
been a long time since you called me
how could you forget about me
you gotta be feeling crazy
how can you walk away
when everything stays the same
i just can’t do it baby
what will it take to make you come back
boy i told you what it is
and it just ain’t like that
why can’t you look at me?
you’re still in love with me
don’t leave me crying
baby why can’t we just start all over again
get it back to the way it was
if you give me a chance i can love you right
but you’re telling me it won’t be enough
so baby i will wait for you
cause i don’t know what else i can do
don’t tell me i ran out of time
if it takes the rest of my life
baby i will wait for you
if you think i find it just ain’t true
i really need you in my life
no matter what i have to do
i’ll wait for you
so why does your pride make you run
and hide
are you that afraid of me?
but i know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
that is not how you want it to be
baby i will wait for you
baby i will wait for you
if it’s the last thing i do
baby i will wait for you
cause i don’t know what else i can do
don’t tell me i ran out of time
if it takes the rest of my life
baby i will wait for you
if you think i find it just ain’t true
i really need you in my life
no matter what i have to do
i’ll wait for you
i’ll be waiting …
i'm glad our paths crossed.
you're the best thing that ever happened to me.
and i love you,
more than i ever thought i could with anyone else.
no matter how far the distance maybe,
you'll always be a part of me.
cause the love is the shortest distance between two hearts.
i'm sorry for all the pain i've caused you.
i never mean to hurt you.
if i could turn back time,
i probably would.
cause to make a dozen of new friends,
is worth nothing
if it means losing you.
The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more,
that plants a fire in our hearts
and brings peace to our minds,
and that's what you've given me.
That's what I hope to give to you forever.even though things may be different,
i'll still hold on to one thing tt i treasure most in my life
besides my family..
and that is,
the love i have for you.
i love you.
gonna be alone for the weekend.
literally.biar aku biar diam membisu saja,
biar rindu biar diam begini lama.
namun aku jua insan,
yang perlukan perhatian.
i'm thankful that school's been keeping me busy.
as my wait continues.
started school at nine today.
was quite early for school, for once (:
today we got our student cards ):
means that we'll have to start tapping our cards soon.
which also means that i cant be late for school.
i was fine when i woke up for school.
but i guess i caught the flu bug that farah and timo
passed around class :P
fever, flu and aircon room for 3 hours
is seriously a bad combination.
i was freezing in the lecture room.
but thank God the sweater i brought was
big enuf to cover the whole of me (:
thanks to my dearest classmates who took care of me.
and to my big didi, ran (: thanks for the concern.
i guess i am that stubborn. should have listened to ya.
and to dan, thanks for the concern as well (:
dun scold me ready kays. i've become a good girl
and ate my medicine.
well, after having hot chocolate ice blended!
oh wells. but the best part of school today was LAB PERIOD!
for the first time, a teacher entrusted the LAB to us!
hahaha. so we started out lab with taking 3 drops of Sheila's blood
for testing under the microscope.
RBC in isotonic solution is so damn cute and cooooool..
and when its in hypertonic and hypotonic solution,
its just not so cool anymore...
okay the best part of LAB, has to be when Dr Maw left us..
hahahaha we started taking pictures with the THINGS inside
the lab.. check out the pics!
the 'hospital'
the aisle to lab!
our dear muscle man :P
errr... yoga?
haha nice leg! 
happy lab-family!
haha he cudnt take his hat off to us,
so he decided to take his skull off ;)
(its on my shoulder!)
cant wait for other lab sessions.
and there's more photos that we took.
haha but anita hasnt send me those pics (:
wanted to go to library to study after school.
but i had to pangsey Sam, cause i wasnt feeling well.
so she had to go alone. sorry babe.
went straight home and had a long nap.
cause promised dan i'd eat my medicine
and i did. and thats why i k.o ):
dinner at downtown was fabulous.
bumped into Sgt Jeremiah and gf!
haha he scolded me for calling him Sgt.
and he introduced me to his gf
as his PA! hahaha what oni! (:
and then...
i went to walk around the shops at Downtown.
some random stranger walked past,
and he was wearing the same scent
he wears.. sigh..
anyways..
soon, it wud be e time to explore E!Hub. haha
its finally opening soon! (:
means movies are just walking distance away ((:
i had BnJ's Choco Fudge! (:
haha so sinful. all the things i tried to loose
during hockey has successfully being gained back.
well it resulted in me loosing my voice now..
but it was all for a good cost.
next week onwards,
cousin asked me to join him for gym in school.
hahaha its quite weird. but gonna go for it (:
gonna spend more time in the pool than anything else ((:
wheeeeeee.
reply to Tags:
sarahj: hahaha love you guys larh (: once a cedarian, ALWAYS a cedarian ;) some people just cannot understand that eh.. tell them, 'last warning eh!'
rupini: must play tt game again okay!! hahaha ((: had loads of fun. thanks.
zaz: eh eh! ahahaha ;) just remember four of us and one of you! anddd that was suppose to be an inside joke lor (:
kG: haiya.. wad to do larh bro... everyday oso emo ):
Jh: sugarbaby! haha achap sent me yr 'superman' picture with sham! hahaha.
syimaholmes: ehh u jealous arh? once a cedarian always a cedarian hor. graduate oso still jiwa cedar okay! hahaha. last warning eh! got 4 of us and one of you! (:
prem: BRO! hahaha dun liddat arh. d other day call you to come, u busy with girlfriend. see larh.
den me and achap and my cousin go emo ourselves. tsk. meet me soooooon.
bear1: ya lor! syimaholmes think she very strong want to bully ppl. tsk tsk tsk.
kG: hahaha its he's too busy with gf for sister ready ah. i should be the sad one. hmmph.
syimaholmes: hahaha. congrats for what sey. there wasnt even a battle. hahaha. eh eh! u dun disturb my bear okay.
zaz: ehhh must say one! cause you beat all the GUYS who went for the selection. oopps. sorry brothers. but seriously! must let the whole world know. hahaha was gooood bumping into you the other day. so unexpected arh. hahaha with FEEQ and that skinny person by e name of NURZAHIDAH. hahaha. i hope she reads this. seee you soooon!
and to end off,
here's all i gotta say.
you come to find love,
not by finding the perfect person.
but by seeing an imperfect person,
perfectly (:
sigh..
my curfew got extended by default
thanks to school. got home super late
yesterday and today (:
11.30pm.
credits goes to...
HOCKEY!
first training yesterday.
and first friendlies today!
against australian team.
okay, so we lost. but at least there's
a learning experience from it (:
i really think i should have bought the spray.
oh wells. highlights of the past two days!
class ended at 8pm officially on mondays fr DR n RT students.
at least most of us were half awake (:
BIG THANKS to my dearest lovely classmates a.k.a family combo
who accompanied me all the way to the hockey pitch.
(cause it was my first day, and i didnt knw anybody
and so i was scared)
my 2 big sisters, Ran and Sheila.
Rina, Anitha, Samantha, Farah n Farhanah (:
so sweeeet of you guys!
okay rewind a lot..
before we had NIGHT lessons, we had a 4hr break.
now, so as not to let the time go to waste...
we went to catch a movie instead of going for the bursary talk.
(wow, trying to be rebellious.. bt the talk wasnt compulsory :P )
so we bombard Cathay AMK Hub. and guess what we watch..
FUNNY GAMES U.S
at first the thought of it being like Final Destination got
all of us excited to watch the show.
this show was SICK, but it was damn STUPID.
SUPER WASTE of time. i swear.
in the end, we all were asking too many questions
that we came to a conclusion that this movie was
not worth discussing about.. :)
so there were 13 of us.
Liyana's boyfriend joined us as well. so brave of him haha ((:
letmme see if i can recall all the 13 names..
Ran, Sheila, Rina, Anitha, Sam, Shaniszah, Farah, Liyanah, Liyanah's Bf,
Kenneth, Jason, Timothy and Tres (:
i'm goooood (:Physics just didnt make sense.
all the 13 tickets (:
most of the girls, except Ran and Liyanah (:all in all..
i had a great time with my classmates ((:
love you guys!
anddd today...
i was damn tired from hockey the day before.
every single muscle in the body was aching.
haha after-effects of staying at home, rotting too long (:
A&P was just rated M-18, apparently i was 'underage' yeah right.
and soo i was soooo looking forward to break.
while secretly enjoying my hershey's cookies and creame
and mentos. my 2 most favourite things in the world
after a whole long list of other things (:
class had a commotion about electives being all filled.
grr. must be the nursing students taking up
all our spaces. haha sorry, no offence ah.
so after A&P, most of us rushed to the comp lab
to see whats left for us to choose. and end up
the whole class wud be taking LIFE SCIENCES.
oh wells. might as well make the most of it.
okay the highlight of mentioning this part was the fact that,
HAIZAD IMRAN is a nursing student
who is taking an adv dip in nursing
and he is also a nurse in IMH.
who eats at the NORTH Canteen, spends most of the time
in the library anddd the comp labs.
(full credits goes to Lina, Farhanah n Qix for doing a good job
in stalking him.)
haha not the point. point is, i was sitting at the space beside
him, totally unaware of my surroundings.
until i tot i saw [insertnamehere] and i figured i must
be hallucinating...
so i loooked away. den it strucked me tt its someone
familiar. and so i looked at him the second time.
and this time, he turned to look and smile.
and my eye widened like nobody's business.
omg. so kental okay ): and he smiled again.
haiya.. paiseh eh. so i changed place
and went to sit at the area in front (:
kentalness..
okay. so the rest of the day was alright.
spent a lot of time with my dearest family combo.
and enjoying it to the max (:
and then.. me and qix went to meet gooood friends of ours (:
haha thanks eh!
LITTLE MISS STUBBORN.
what oni.. i'm not stubborn hor (:
very gooood girl. so angelic (k.. dont puke)
and we attempted to take MANY pictures..
and only oneeee came out right. but oh wells...
tsk tsk, the only non-tudung person :P
had a GREAT time with you gals.
sorry i couldnt stay long cause i had hockey.
but meeeet up sooon okies (:
SYFOC'08 postings came out already.
RIFAH GOT PARADE COMMANDER!
wohoooooo girl power!
and i manage to get the post of GOH Contingent Commander (:
XiaoWei is GOH Contingent Commander 2IC (:
wohooo! kecohness for SYFOC thats for sure.
congrats to my dearest senior
AZRIL for getting to carry the SINGAPORE ENSIGN!
his drills must have been damn kilat! (:
my bro khai is in it as well. so is reddy and hassan and alvin ((:
SYFOC'08 shall be super super super fun!!
congrats to all...
n to kazee: dont back out arhhh ):
i tire myself out
physically and mentally these days.
just so that i dont have to think much...
about whats happening and what would happen.
cause i'm pretty clueless myself.
and i'm ran out of options to choose from,
thinking of the whys.
but whatever it is, time will tell it all.
not everyone is destined to find love,
but loving is everyone's lot.
even if it remains a dream..
so if loving you is a dream,
i never wanna wake up.
first and foremost,
thanks a million to sarah, nurin, rupini, rifah, syimah and reddy for the fabulous saturday (:
after a week of waking up early.
i still had wake up early on saturday.
but its all for a good cost (:
NDP 2008 training was alright.
except that it was exceptionally hot at 2Sir parade square.
but the best thing was the echoes.
haha me and my partner in crime, Ren Hui..
had fun giving commands cause of the echoes.
it was damn cool! (:
unfortunately many of the girls reported sick.
must be due to the weather.
oh wells.
sgt firdaus and perky butt had a great time slacking :P
after a long morning without breakfast.
everyone's stomach was literally grumbling.
so we head down to northpoint for lunch.
haha and reddy was there waiting ;)
we kinda turned long johns upside down.
we played a few games to entertain ourselves (:
and we had a lot of fun..
a lil bit too much when it comes
to the ' say a thosand legged worm' game ;)supposed to watch definitely maybe..
but due to certain glitches,
we just hang around the area and designed a t-shirt
for NDP 2008. cause our 'dearest' (pukes) DC,
wants it by monday.
the rest of the day was superbly great (:
we even got syimaholmes THINKING.
haha. (insidejoke)
the disasters we tried to inflict on reddy.
(making him up with chalk :D)
but the results weren't that bad ;)
the female ndp instructors ;)
after a hard day of laughing and torturing people around..
cedarians :)
to syimah n rifah, dun start messing around with us arh.
there's four of us. and one of you :P
sarahj n me (:
rupini and me (:
the cutest couple ever.jealous.
and its the four of us again (:
i just realised i didnt a solo pic with nurin ):
nvm nxt training(:
oh! and i was feeling a lil rebellious and
skipped floorball training!
danial is being utterly annoying!!
trying to scare me in the middle of the night right?!
not working okays! sheeeeesh.
still not scared (:
sunday's gonna be a boring day ):
and with sunday coming..
it means d start of my hell week is starting too ):
but oh wells (:what about now?
friday!
marks the completion of my first week of school.
so far, i'm enjoying every moment of it (:
nothing much happened today.
besides the fact that i only had one lecture for this week.
and Ms Sharon is by far the funnest lecturer the class has (:
had lunch with classmates at koufu (:
met [insertnamehere] in the evening..
went to window shop for a while.
and then i shall call it a day (:
dunno if i shd go for floorball cause
i'm was more interested in hockey.
but we'll see how it goes...and to you,
whichever path you decide
just so u know that i'd always back you up.
no matter what happens.
3 hours break, while the other 2/3 of the class
ended their lessons for the day at 12noon. not fair.
so we used the time for some class bonding.
M.R.S was soooooo draggy.
a lot of us nearly died in the lecture rm.
and in the middle of the lesson someone's stomach
growled so loudly. hence, after class
all of us (most of us) dashed to macdonalds
for a decent meal for the day.
after tt,
sam, rina, ran, anita, sheila, jason, qix, lina, farah
and some ppl i still cant rmb their names
went to 'club crawl' to the cca booths (:
i kinda decided what cca to join.
hockey, floorball and girls' soccer.
but for rina's sake, i placed my name
for foreignbodies dance crew.
errrr. well.. not likely to happen.
club-crawl was fun with all these girls around.
omg. they cant keep their eyes still.
haha i duno larh. the hot guys they see,
not really appealing to me arh.
i dunno why oso..
okay arh. they got the height.
some have got the body and tanned.
but.. (:
after their oogling session,
we had an important class meeting.
which was to decide whether or not to go for the
SSR talk in the evening..
after much persuasion by sheila...
and being the gooooood people that we are..
we decided to go for SSR talk.
M.R.S was fun! even though having lessons at blk H
is annoying causeeee there's no reception due to the
labs being there ):
we were introduced the the xray machines.
BUCKY is gonna be my new best friend.
(btw, bucky is the name of the machines)
damn cool. den we kinda had to try on these aprons
that were supposed to protect us from radiation exposure.
than there were sandbags.
and MR CHIN made us stand for 2 hours.
we could have completed the assignment in 30mins
if he didnt digress so much. but oh wells.
after lab session, everybody gathered at the LT-H
and the seniors kept asking us to come in for the
talk. but we refused. cause we were waiting for
the other half of our kakis. haha.
some of our classmates are really really really
anti-social. haha. so weird lah them.
everybody's enjoying each others company
and these bunch of ppl.. are looking at us
as if we're the weird ones...
the talk was alright.
kinda inspiring to some of us who were planning
to withdraw if we get a place in NTU or NUS.
haha me included.
it all depends on 2 things (:
talk ended ard 8pm. got home at 9.30pm.
damn shag. super long day at school.
ride home was fun. now i have fellow
easties to go to school with (:
haha and i never thought i'd say this but,
THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY 2mr!
haha. a well deserved break before week 2 comes crashing by..aside all the fun and laughters i have in school.
my heart and mind wonders somewhere else.
or shd i say,
someone else.
was almost late for first class of the day.
came at 9.07 am on the school's watch,
thank God Mr Vijay starts lesson at 9.10am.
wasnt bothered much abt ppl ard me,
due to the fact i was gg to be late.
(to siddiq, yes its no longer jc,
but the ppl in my class are all jc students.
so being late is not an option)
and when i tot i never wud have to touch
physics again. i was wrong ):
quite lost in physics lecture.
God help me..
26/28 yr old guy was the talk of the class
for being simply annoying and irritating.
haha coming to think abt it, its only the 3rd day of school
and he has a lot of ppl not liking him.
gosh. even the BOYS of the class are staying away frm him.
okay so he's smart-ER than most of us.
but hey at his age, he should at least have a wife.
but seeing hw annoying he could be, we all bet that he doesnt
even have a girlfriend. if he does, she must be deaf and mute.
maybe even blind. haha.
breakfast with class (part of) for the first time.
kecoh-ness. cause Ren was the slowest amongst all of us.
(haha. i bet [insertnamehere] wud be shock tt there's actually
somebody who eats slower than me (: )
despite Ren took very long to finish her hotcakes.
Adelle, me, Samantha, Anita, Tres and Ren
made it to sociology lecture. and we were early (:
didnt know where Rina and Sheila went.
haha there's an empty seat beside 'joker' a.k.a the annoying guy.
surprisingly the guys sat with him.
but we never saw any form of communication.
haha we disturbed Ren cause of what he said to her
earlier. and the fact that she had the same specs as him.
the moment we saw that empty seat, we all laughed (:
school ended pretty fast today.
err, and probably its the only time its gonna be like this ):
met cousin at the right side of the back alley.
omg. i swear the journey there, was
suffocating. everyone on the RIGHT side
was foggin. tt includes my dearest cousin.
met Rad and Kumar there as well.
then Achap called. suppose to have lunch with him,
prem and faiz. but ended up meeting prem
and friends at 502.
went home straight after that.
and had a long long long long long long nap (:i dun like taking long bus rides home.
neither do i like to take the train.cause it makes me miss you,
more than i should (:
FRESHIE!yeap. once again i'm called a freshie.
haha but its alright.
cause i deserve to be called that.
since i got lost on my first day of school
on my way to my first lesson.
perspire like crazy. gg to the wrong blocks.
and later ending up at the same area.
i knew i should have gone earlier with siddiq.
but not the point.
at the point of SOS,
nobody was available.
prem was in lecture.
so was siddiq and achap..
faiz wasnt even in school.
and soooo, i called my fellow freshie
qix! and her friend directed me to a place where i started from.
day 1 and i made quite a lot of friends.
funny thing, most of them werent from
SCHOOL OF HEALTH SCIENCE (SHS)
yeapp. and whats more hillarious is that
these friends are friends of my cousin :P
talk about being weird.
went for lunch with cousin and friends.
canteen is filled with mats, bengs, nerds and stuffs like that.
thank God cousin was there.
thanks siddiq! (:
day 2 was better.
went to school in the morning, after so long.
and i fell asleep in the train a lot of times.
omg. kecoh2..
coincidentally bumped into siddiq at the platform.
den we walked into school together with rina.
ren was a lil bit to late cause she called me for lunch
only after i left the building..
met prem and friends.
ermm.. was a lil weird?
but i left soon after i got there (:
seen ard school with dearest cousin is a good thing
in a bad way. cause people might think that
we're actually dating (hell no!)
when we're actually cousins.. more like siblings.
haha. but seriously,
first time i realised that
he's really looking out for me.
very sweet of him (:
called me during his breaks.
asked if i've eaten or not (cause he's aware of my fears
of mats n ppl along those lines)
asked if i wanted him to accompany me in between classes.
sweet right?
(but of course i must go to some secluded area of the school
so that he could start fogging)
enjoyin campus life so far.
cause its oni day 2 of school.
hopefully things gets better and better
even though i'm aware the work load is gonna
increase like crap.
but if there's a will, there's a way ;)if only you knew hw much you mean to me..
every step that we take in life,is a learning journey.
and for the past three weeks.
i shared my learning experience with 14 other individuals..
ADAMANTIUM- a cut above the rest
to my dearest;
syakirin, danial, anaz, sebastian, giant, soo kee, clement, usman, kah jui, gaan jie, li jie, kok sheng, ri wei, wei en...
you guys have been really great. yes, there were times that you guys were really bad too.
but hey, in the end..
i'm proud to be a part of ADAMANTIUM.
you guys put up a really great show that night.
cant express in words how proud i am.
sorry things had to go wrong.
but we know that if everything were to go according to plan,
your performance would be a cut above the rest ;)
i wish you all the best
in this journey as a Cadet Officer.
always remember one thing,
with the COC course ending on the 11th April 2008..
it marks the start of your real learning journey,
as a young leader.
be sure to bring glory to the district (:
well, even though we dont like the person in charge of it,
its still our district. so we cant let anyone, nt even her
spoil it ;)your journey has just begun,
while mine has come to an end...
all the best!
going for this three weeks coursewas a decision i made. and i guess,its something that is worth reflecting over. i'm sorry if i've upset certain peoplefor not knowing how to prioritize between the two.. i'll make it up somehow.sorry. you make me wanna surrender my soul...
and after two weeks in camp,
all i can say is that
i miss you ):
course is going great.
adamantium is bonding like crazy.
and the best thing is,
i'm a part of this.
i miss you.
glitches here and there.
but at least there aint many problems within
fellow instructors.
haha except that we gang up against
certain people who gives trouble or
creates trouble.
i miss you.
i'm starting school
on the 14th April 2008!
i've been accepted to
DIAGNOSTIC RADIOLOGY
so now, i'm proud to say that
i'm going to get my rusty brains to work again!
and that i'm a student of
NANYANG POLYTECHNIC.
and yes, i'm a freshie all over again.
i miss you.
more updates as the week goes by.
Affirmation this coming week.
POP next friday.
SCHOOL next next monday!
and i'm praying hard that someone too gets into his first choice.
and i miss you.with all that has been said and done,
i finally came to realise.
it has always been you.
and it will always be you.just you.