its a saying that i have all reasons to believe in.
every life in this world tells a different story.
every one has to go thru this journey called life,
each taking their individual path,
living life, they way they want to live it.

this path that i choose to take began 19years ago
it has indeed many twist and turns.
i've come across many crossroads and need to take many
decisions that determines the direction of the journey
that i'm heading towards.

twelve,
my crossroad came to a point of choosing
what kind of atmosphere i want to be nutured in,
during my teenage life. and i made a choice,
to be in an all-girls school,
Cedar Girls' Secondary School
i'm proud to be a part of that school up till today.
proud of the uniform, Blue and Grey.
even though some other school might want to copy
our uniform [lets not mention names shall we],
you can tell Cedarians apart from the others..
like all true Blue Cedarians would say,
'Once a Cedarian, Always a Cedarian'

and again, i came to another junction in life.
and i had to make a crucial decision that determines
the first step to my future.

sixteen,
i had to choose to which tertiary institution i wanna
be a part of.
i was disappointed at first cause i couldn't make it to
the college of my choice, so i settled for whatever comes
in my way, and that choice was to be a part of another
true Blue school..
Meridian Junior College.

then i thought,
prolly God has better plans for me, thats why i didnt
get into the college that i worked hard for.
i didnt like the school at first, poly became an option
for a few months.. however i stayed on for 2 years.
thanks to my blessings in disguise.. my lovely collage-mates.
i had the best time of my life, in just the short time of 2 years.
collage life is something i really miss now.
not so much of the school, but of the Meridians thats in it.
how unenthu my batch were about school events, and how
united we are when it comes to skipping school events
and crap like that. haha. soccer matches is the most fun time
of the year. going to Jalan Besar Stadium and National Stadium
seeing the soccerboys playing their hearts out.
so yeah, MJ aint that established like VJ and RJ and HCJC,
but hey, we made it up the charts fast. only established for 6 years
and we're somewhere up at the top 7 schools.

haha. now coming to think about it,
God has nicely planned everything out for me.
if i did go somewhere else,
i probably wont have what i treasure most today (:

now.
at chapter 19,
i face another crossroad yet again..
Release of Alvls Examination 2007 Results.

its something that crush me deeply.

cause i know i dont deserve these grades.

i never studied as hard as i did for the A's.

but i guess,

God has got other plans for me.

so at this crossroad i stand.

still thinking where's the best place for me to go.

to do something

for the sake of doing it,

or do something that

i have interest in.

both path that lies before me,

leads me to two seperate worlds.

i thank God for blessing me with

great parents.

supportive of everthing i do.

but what they say its true,

this choice is something i gotta make on my own.

no one can do it for me.

and in life,

choices arents as simple as choosing

good over bad.

its often choosing the

greater of two goods or

the worst of two evils.

i'm here in New Zealand to view the campus

of the Lincoln University at ChristChurch.

its a great place.

but..

i'm staying in Singapore.

i'm sure of that...

but,

so many people telling me what i should do.

so many people telling me what i shdnt do.

but nobody ever asks what I wanna do.

now,

i'm not gonna bother much about that.

having a great time at New Zealand.

its a BEAUTIFUL place.

i've been to many countries.

but nothing beats the

natural beauty of this place.

well maybe Switzerland can..

in some ways (:

reply to tags:

shanistorupini: eh i not small okay! anyhow oni

shanistoElf-y: haha. ironically, the person i dedicate the quote to seems to ignore it totally.

shanistosyimaholmes: sorry ah i didnt come down. too emo to do anything.haha and the quest for your brain would be a tough one. it could take FOREVER! hahaha.

shanistosarahj: ehhhhh. you carry me sia! basket. there wun be a NEXT time. [i hope] hahaha you guys rock lah.

shanistozaz: rifah! PEACOCK bully me! haha. thanks babe. i guess luck just wasnt on my side. hahaha. sigh. seeeee you soon okay. i can believe i miss out the fun drg ADC. but NZ's great lah eh.

shanistoeeeduh: yes irritating girlfriend. and i cant believe you call every minute lah. basket. make me more nervous than i should be.

shanistoSuperBoy: thanks! haha coming home 2mr (:

shanistoAin: heys! haha my results are okay. but i'm dissapointed cause i knew i could have done better. yeaps. thanks for asking babe. take care too!

shanis to _____: haha really? since when? (: btw, you are?

finally,

thanks to all that were there for me last friday.

big thanks to my parents,
for being the most supportive people on earth.
i guess its true what they say,
even when the whole world turns against you,
you know that there'll always be two special
people in your live who'd be right besides you.
and these people are no stranger,
your parents.
i love you guys.

nurul and adila,

we'll go through this alright.

someone always remind me,

everything happens for a reason.

and we'll find out this reason soon enough.

insya-Allah, everything will be alright.

just leave it to the one who writes the story of our lives.

Elf-y and SuperBoy,

thanks for making me look like a crazy person.

imagine the public seeing someone crying and

laughing at the same time.

haha okay. seriously..

thanks, for being there for me always..

and for being absolutely crazy (:

SafwanahbteShariffMarican.
no words could describe how much you mean to me.

just a simple thank you isnt enough.

but i gotta say it,

thanks for being at the airport to send me off,

and to make sure that i'm okay before

i leave for New Zealand.

love ya!

thanks to NURZAHIDAH.

for being crazy person and calling me every

dunno how many minutes.

haha love ya babe.

MEET ME SOON pls.

to the crazy buggers who called me.

haha you guys are so cute.

thanks for cheering me up.

see you guys at NDP next week aytes.

gimme a big hug then.

and to my cousins.

Shah, Siddiq and Nana Zul

for being there for me.

till the very end (: