love is like the wind..

Blind

I was young but I wasn't naïve
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

Sunday, September 9, 2007

12:01 AM

2 days left to prelims.
all i've been doin is consuming
pills, syrups and lozenges.
medicine. medicine. medicine.

really stressed out.
quite sure i'm not the only one.

sometimes i wish i was born someone else.
born smart so i can ace everything without much hassle.
born pretty so i can use my face to make big bucks on runway.
born talented so i can use it to earn huge amt of cash on d screen.

but in midst of wishing being everyone else,
it struck me that i should be VERY thankful for who i am.
i'm born perfect.
with two eyes, one nose, a mouth, two good pairs of ears.
no disabilities.
i'm considered perfect.

what if i wasnt born perfect,
blind?
deaf?
dumb?

only then i realised how fortunate i am.
we may be perfect in someways, but not so perfect in others.
i might be smart but there are plenty others who are smarter.
i might think i'm dumb, but there are people who wish that they could be
where i am.

Alvls coming.
stress is increasing.
i hope i can recover by the time tuesday comes.
get over prelims, and regain my full health
and prepare for the start of the Alvls.

i'm fighting not only to last through the war,
but emerge victorious at the end of it all.
- shanis

the war is A'lvls.
even though i still cant get over the fact that i spent
my last EIGHTEEN MONTHS
suffering trying to cramp every single information into my brain cell
and answering all those freaky questions, just to sit for
an examination thats worth 22hrs 30mins of my TIME.
and its this ONE day worth of examination is SO VALUABLE
that it would affect me for an entire LIFETIME.
its the TICKET to the FUTURE.

may Allah accompany me thru the thick and thins of this journey of a lifetime (: Amin.

.i wanna change for the better.