Officially 18!
18th birthday is a blast.
for that i thank all of you guys that made it happen.
Nurul
Adilah
Shalini
Shakthi
Zahidah
Ping Siew
Fiona
Fahmi Zee
Zul
Raphael
Ameer
Avon
Sham
Thinesh
Bella
Abigail
Fadilah
Wei Jia
Michelle
Vijay
Sidney
Nadira
Amalina
Diyana
Aqilah
Nurbaya
Rifah
Khalis
Hidayah
Fahmi
Fahmi 204
Adelle
Bao Ying
Jacinth
Tricia
my lovely classmates
special thanks to
my bestest friendsaffywanah bte shariff maricanfor the testimonial.
sadly you werent the first to send me the wishes.
but its okay (:
there has to be a first time when you're beaten to wishing me first.
hafiz,
thanks for singing me the birthday song over the fone (:
and listening to my nonsense the whole night.
really appreciate it. may you find your happiness soon (:
n there shdnt be ne more tears for you.
my loveables.
nurul adi shalini n shakthi.
you guys are the most psychotic ppl on earth.
i love the bear and the big big red balloon.
haha. so cute lah you ppl.
ice cream was great
mcs ppl.
thank you for the delicious choco cake.
haha special thanks to zaki for getting the cake :)
ameer.
thanks for dedicating your entry for the birthday wishes
and msging me at 12 midnight, didnt expect you to rmb (:
very sweet of ya. haha i'm still your angel eh? haha.
be strong yeah, love can be a very painful game.
my birthday came to a great ending.
though my bestest friend still owes me a meeting with her.
singapore celebrates our win over thailand on the same night!
and i was there at the national stadium to witness it. so cool!
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i'm spending my weekends alone it seems.
didnt go for road race.
since ALL loveables didnt go.
and plus i haf 2 weeks mc from pe.
might as well take the advantage.
busted right knee giving me real problem.
hope the thing recovers soon.
i watch 'Babul' today. (yes its a hindi movie)
its a great show..
shows how great the love of parents can be.
also made me think about life..
cast:amitabh bachan, salman khan, rani, john abraham, hema malini.
storyline: amitabh bachan is e father of salman, very close more like friends.
salman came back from studying abroad and fell in love with rani.
and she loves him too.
john abraham is rani's childhood friend who also loves her.
rani got married to salman. they had a kid called ansh (in e movie)
salman was otw home frm europe to attend ansh's bday party
when he got into fatal accident and died.
rani was devastated. and amitabh bachan tried his best
to bring back life to her, he searched for john abraham (who went
away to europe after rani's marriage) and asked him to
pursue his love and bring back joy to rani's life.
amitabh bachan became a father to rani. he had almost everyone
against him in trying to make his daughter happy, including his wife,
hema malini. but his determination to bring back his daughter's happiness
manage to overcome everything. rani got married to john abraham.
typical hindi movie?
i think so too. but being 18, a matured young adult.
-coughs coughs- someppl would roll on the floor laughin
if i say this to him. grrr.
i tried to relate the movie into the context of reality.
love happens. when you least expect it.
but life doesnt stop when love happens.
which means, the obstacles of life awaits no matter what.
in the movie, rani fell in love with salman.
how it began was very fairytale like (duhh its a movie!)
they got married, but she lost him soon after... four years.
in life, we'll fall in love, and fall out of one too.
and sometimes, the things we love the most, the things
that keeps us alive, is taken away from us too soon.
whether its good or not,
cause, i kinda dont want to find love anymore.
besides the love i have for my parents and my friends.
not the kind of love, which would be the air i breathe
every moment to keep me alive.
even if i already have someone whom i like...
let love come as it is...
but i rmb saying,
that i shdnt just sit around and wait for
things to happen. i should stand up and
go for it.
but i guess, love is a game that needs a totally
different approach. its a game that makes
or breaks someone.
i mean who wouldnt want someone that
she can call hers.
who'd be there to make her smile
and for her to share her joy and laughters with.
simply, just to share her life with.
i want that guy to come.
but he's taking an awfully long time to.
but i bet God has His reasons for the delay.
haha call me crazy.
but something inside tells me that
its either he'll never come.
or, i wun live long enough to see him come.
i'm not under depression no,
but everytime i sit down and think to myself.
thats the feeling i always have in my heart.
when it comes to the matters of the heart,
dont use your head to think about it.
cause it bring about more problem.
just listen to what the heart has got to say,
and you'll find your answers..
haha. of course its easier said than done.
but yeah since turning eighteen.
i've changed a lil. haha shalini pointed this out. :)
i wont mention it here. but i'll continue to be who i think
i should be rather than thinking of how i should be just
so that i could fit in. haha but since i already haf the feeling
that i wont live life long enough, i should spare ppl
from the pain of seperation.
i guess us having almost identical characteristics
should have made me realise why you do things that
you do. cause i do it too.
i have a high ego and so do you.
i dont wanna initiate any first move and so do you.
we both wanna hold our ego high.
anyways, thanks for the care and concern
you showered me with.
in a very weird way. very weird.
i think i'll just remain silent and slowly fade off.
even though
i still like you. very much.
i just want my parents and my friends for now.
and thats what we are right.
friends.
good friends.
game of love?
i no longer wanna be a part of it.
game over. 
