love is not only created for two different individuals
who found the missing halves of them in the other.
love exists between a group of people who are better known as friends.
love exists amongst the people who never gets bored
seeing you day after day since the day you're born, in other words,
family.
its true that when you find that other half of yours,
he makes life complete.
but coming to think about it again,
this path that we're walking on earth,
it doesnt last forever...
february, is really the month of love.
well i gotta admit, it really does lift up to its name.
a lot of issues concerning the heart occured in life.
no, it doesnt revolve around boys. well maybe a lil (:
i appreciate e love i'm getting from the greatest family God
can ever grant me with (:
Alhamdullilah..
and i love them a lot too!
especially my beloved Mom.
e one i'm living for, and there's nothing
i wouldnt do just to keep her smiling.
next on the charts,
i love my friends. more than anything after my family.
safwanahbteshariffmarican tops the chart as usual.
coming up next nurzahidah, my girlfriend.
these two bugger whom i've not met for a VERY long time.
i really miss them. good news is...
saf is coming over tomoro and i'm meeting eeeduh
at downtown on wednesday after school (:
my central people
fahmi, pingsiew, shahril, zul, anei, aprie, fons!
life would have been NOTHING without these people.
following that are the loveables!
adi, nurul, shalini n shakthi (:
and all my ncc mates.
i love my friends totally inclusive of my adek,
afiqah liyana n aishah.
they keep my life going despite the fact that there
isnt anyone whom i can call mine.
especially the saf,idah and loveables whom i practically share
every minute of my life with. and e central ppl who'd add
crazy bits into my life. i love them totally.
at the same time, this month..
nevertheless its like walking down memory lane
all over again.
where the heart is the thing that suffers most in the end.
its been two days, and the tears hasnt dried.
i guess thats the reason why i'm sick.
its also a month when people come and go...
maybe i'm not destined not to find love just as yet.
what is love?
to me,
love is something that keeps me smiling throughout the day,
just to know that he's in my life.
it is love when someone who makes me smile just by being there,
without having to utter anything.
love is when i can be myself and not worry about what he might think of me.
love is when i can share anything and everything with without feeling uncomfortable...
love is not about making someone yours, neither does love comes
with an agreement that the other party would feel the same,
it happens and you know that it does...
you fall in love without expecting the he feeling the same for you,
love is when you're happy when he is happy, even if it means you are not
a part of that happiness.
love is a sacrifice.
love is pain.
love is beautiful.
love is everything and anything that you imagine it to be.
and all these, occurs on it own.
without anyone forcing anyone or anything into it.
thats why they call it, 'falling in love'
where you just fall and think of whats waiting for you at the
end of your fall.
firm steady hands that reach out, waiting to catch you
or just the cold hard floor that crashes and tear you apart.
thats the hard cold fact of love, it has only two extremes scenarios
nothing in between.
someone ever said this to say this to me,
'you make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.'
well yeah its a line pick off from the movie, 'hot chicks'
that particular scene is a particular sweet scene where
the guy (Billy) confessed his love for the girl (Jessica) when
his friend told him to get a spare girlfriend.
sweet eh?
i'm just praying to God that when the time comes,
e one for me would be able to guide me through
e right path till i breathe my last breathe (:
i've committed things which indeed has left
a dent in my life. things which i wished never happened.
things which i wanna forget ever existed.
but i know i cant erase these things that has already
happened. adding on to that, the black past
that i had, has made it worst to go through
life when i think about things like this at times...
but hey i'm still able to smile and shun these bad experiences
as much as i can.
but i really hope that i stop hurting people,
especially after they know that nothing can happen.
so please, before i distant myself from whoever
concerned, just stop please, you're just
trying to hard. we can just be FRIENDS.
nothing more than that... i'm sorry.
i've made it clear then, and i'm making it clear
again.
Alhamdulillah. Cause i know, no matter what happens, the things
that doesnt kill you, only makes you stronger.
I'm lucky that God made me realise my mistakes and
still loves me to allow me to come back to the right path.
Now, i'm leaving my life in God's hands. I trust that
whatever happens in life, it happens for a reason.
All the mishaps that happens, serves as a test, to make
the individual stronger people, in preparation to go through
bigger obstacles of life.
Alhamdullilah, I'm lucky enough not to face family problems,
like some people i know of. Alright, so maybe i'm not so lucky in love.
haha but hey, family's the greatest treasures in anyone's life (:
heartbreaks and heartaches are norms in a girl's life.
its these things that makes women stronger than men.
emotionally i mean (: physically, we still cant beat them.
i admit. but when things doesnt go your way,
all you gotta keep is strong, move along...
here's a song, that i like a lot.
it explains more or less what i'm thinking
and how i'm feeling (:Move Along
by All American Rejects
Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
these hands are meant to hold.
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along
So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]
(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along
Allah,
sesungguhnya aku telah melakukan dosa
dalam keadaan alpa, dilamuni khayalan.
aku bersyukur kepada mu kerana telah menyedarkan diri
ku dan kembalikan diri ini kepada pangkal jalan.
aku berdoa agar kau menerima taubat ku dan ampuni
dosa dosa ku Ya Allah. Sesungguhnya, kau Tuhan yang
maha Pengasih dan Penyayang.
Aku memohon kepada mu ya Allah, berikanlah aku
ketenangan jiwa dan temukan aku dengan seseorang yang
dapat membimbing ku ke jalan yang Kau Reda-i agar kami tergolong
dalam hamba mu yang kau rahmati ya Allah. Temukan aku
dengan seseorang yang akan menyangi ke dua ibu bapaku dengan
sepenuh jiwa dan raganya seperti dia menyangi ibu bapanya Ya Allah.
Aku pohon kepada mu ya Tuhan, supaya dia adalah seorang yang
bertanggungjawab dan seorang yang penyayang. Ya Allah,
aku hanya seorang hamba yang lemah dan hina tanpa rahmat dan
nikmat yang telah Kau kurniakan kepada ku, dan aku tahu
yang Kau mengetahui segala yang tersurat dan tersirat di dalam
hati ini, Sesungguhnya kau Tuhan semesta alam yang Maha
Mengetahui. Aku bermohon kepada mu ya Allah, kabulkan lah doa-doaku
ini. Amin.
i just wanna smile from the heart