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Blind [accoustic version] - Lifehouse
Blind

I was young but I wasn't naïve
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
Sunday, January 28, 2007
3:35 PM

27th January 2007
had to be the greatest day ever.
i had my early birthday celebration with my lovely friends (:
though not all of them cud make it but
i STILL had fun (:

1545hrs
i met gerry at the usual hangout.
City Hall MRT station.
we made our way to Marina Square MacDonalds
where we met the rest of the gang.
Fahmi, Shahril and Pingsiew.
fons, apriee, zul, and nick couldnt make it.
sad, but i was happy tt shiewwww was there.
haha long time didnt see her -hugggs-

den after that, we made our way to watch
SCHOOL FOR SCOUNDRELS.

a MUST WATCH. damn funny and damn cool.
the its slike the movie giving its viewers
a leson about life in a very light manner. haha.
just go watch la. worth it.

at macs the guys passed me a present.
shahril just REFUSE to pass me the plastic bag.
simply, i had to hug it everywhere i go!
haha. you mean-o
when i gave my tix to the person,
she passed me a bouquet of flowers (:
haha. it had 8 BLUE ROSES.
damn paisehh can. got a lot of ppl.
den went into the movie a lil late oso.
haha. me and shiew shared NACHOS n coke.
hahaha. and i manage to get some popcorn
from the guys (:

during the movie, ril had to leave.
he's dad gt admitted to the hospital.
hope things are fine for ya bro (:

after the movie. made our way to SWENSEN'S.
haha. they made a reservation!?
bumped into commando anei. who was apparently
'rushing back' on the way there.
me fahmi n gerry had fish and chips.
which was superlicious!
and shieww had cray fish pasta (:

after that we had dessert.
EARTHQUAKE!
it was fanatastic! seriuosly.
i was amazed when i saw it (:
so biggggggg.
all of us dig in while fahmi telling his
stories and all of us started to catch up
on each others' life. haha
i miss ping siew. i swear.
not to mention fahmi keep disturbing her abt being spastic.
haha. she with her slingbag, shoebag and hockey stick!
so cute (:
after the EARTHQUAKE,
i had a special slice of cake for me.
which i had to finish it all on my own.
not that i'm complaining abt ice cream
but, i was really very full from the first course
of ice cream!
after that. another complementary ice cream was served.
along with ANOTHER bouquet of flowers.
this time it has got NINE BLUE ROSES ((:
hahahas so funny. i was like,
'wahseyy, hw to walk ard town with 2 bouquets!'
they sang me a birthday song (:
and i made my birthday wish!
so again, we finished e ice cream no matter what

THREE COURSES OF ICE CREAM.
all at one shot.
how cooooooool is that (:

after that, we made our way to suntec.
haha. where the Fountain of Wealth is.
we just sat there and listen to the music and
everything. until...

i went to talk to fahmi.
didnt knw what i wished for last year actually came true.
only tt it was interpreted wrongly.
haha.

okay back to the suspense.
UNTIL.... -drum roll-

i heard a song dedication for me!
Truly Madly Deeply by Savage Garden
and along with it comes a message.
its this laser thing that is reflected on the water mist.
so damn sweeeet lah.
really was touched (:

following that,
fahmi and commando anei came with
a HUGE CHOCOLATE CAKE.
it was really gigantic from SECRET RECIPE.
i was like... what the hell!
speechless.

so another birthday song was sung.
and i cut the cake.
haha it had the big fat number 18 there!
wahseyy i really feel old lah.
we ate the cake and just chill there.
me and shiew went camwhore-ing.
haha (: it was really great.
i opened the presents. haha.
i got a big cute blue bear.
its really damn cuddly.
Love it! now i know what to hug
when i'm feeling down (:
wud definitely remind me of you guys (:
i have a box of chocolates from ChOCz
and along with it is another BLUE rose.

8+9+1 = 18
my eigthteenth rose! haha

i never thought my 18th birthday would be
so much fun and lovely like this one.
it definitely is better than the sweet seventeen.
having big celebrations is nothing compared
to spending it with people who are
very important and close to my heart.
my central family (:
fahmi, shahril, pingsiew, fiona, apriee, gerry, zul, nick
and commando anei

my birthday would have been nothing
without you guys.
and special thanks to fahmi, shahril and shiew for executing
everything and BIG thanks to commando anei
for organising everything ((:

friendship exist to fill up the gaps that love creates.
i guess, my friends are all i need at the moment (:
i love you guys.
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Your Birth Month is January

You are a natural leader who is able to stand up when no one else can.
Strong and powerful, you tend to overshadow those around you.

Your soul reflects: deep love, fascination with life, and a distinctive persona

Your gemstone: Garnet

Your flower: Snowdrop

Your colors: Black, dark red, and dark blue

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Aquarius - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You've got a ton of friends, so you have no problem meeting new people.
You're great at thinking up new things and activities to do with your sweetie.
You tend to let the little things slide in relationships... and focus on the bigger picture.

Your negative traits:

In relationships, it tends to be your way or the highway.
You can never open up completely to someone - you have to keep parts of yourself secret.
You're cold and reserved, which leaves your partner feeling unloved.

Your ideal partner:

Flexible, because you're not going to be the one to compromise!
Is smart and quirky with lots of weird interests... including you.
A true individualist who doesn't care what anyone thinks

Your dating style:

Stimulating. You prefer dates that explore a shared interest - like a lecture, muesum tour, or concert.

Your seduction style:

Wacky. Your wild ideas have your lover wondering what's next.
Insatiable - it takes a lot to satisfy your desires.
Varied. You're eager to try things as soon as you learn about them.

Tips for the future:

Bring a little responsibility to your relationship - like showing up for dates!
Compromise a little. It would kill you to do things your lover's way for once.
Be aware of your partner's jealousy. Even though you aren't jealous, realize your partner is sometimes.

Best color to attract mate: Sky blue

Best day for a date: Wednesday

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You Are 12 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

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Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.

In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.

Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.

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random stuffs i do to entertain myself today.
more about me. so comments.
hrmm, now there's proof that i'm still like a kid.
You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
heh. there's nothing wrong in being a kid afterall (:
i wont agrue much when someppl tease me.
grrr.

the very first one, abt january babies.
i think the most very true one that
i think links with me would be...
fascination with life.
strong and powerful is kinda too big for me
judging from my size. hehe (:
and i love blue!
any shades of them.

my love profile.
haha really shocking but hell yeah.
its kinda true to a big extent.
You can never open up completely to someone - you have to keep parts of yourself secret.
hafiz, you would totally agree to this.
and someppl would say,
' see, i told ya so.'
mikeeeeee. coming to think abt it.
everyting seems almost so true.
freaky!

pssst. the love life secret's out.
haha. very deep words written in there.
but maybe that how i am.
but hey, i'm not what i am (:
Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.
is this true fiz?

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i've been going out with somebody's boyfriend.
even if i dont know the whole
truth yet.
shiew is the 987654th person to tell me that.
i feel very bad rather than sad.
mikeee. its not cool okay sigh.

i've got all the reasons to run away from you now.
and i've got all the reasons to stay out at the beach.
and it gives you all the reasons to be quiet
until you decide to hand over the truth.

ooh look what u've done,
u've made a fool of everyone..

OUCH.

i cant tell fahmi.
and i really am glad i told him about everything
before all this.
i should have listened to him.
next time i decide to go out with a guy,
he's gonna be the first to know. promise.

as for now. i'll just swallow in the pain.
its ironic how you want to be the one i open up to
with all these happening.

wait. karma.
sigh. the more i shouldnt be complaining.

i shall just be quiet.

i wonder what the truth is.
i've already asked you more than twice in fact.
and you said none of these would have happened
if you were...

gonna get back to muggin now.
more pics to be uploaded when this
thing doesnt give me problems.
grrr.
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countdown: 3 days
i cant dream yet another dream
without
you lying next to me,
there's no air...



.i wanna change for the better.

her/
life/
love/
heart/
memories/